Read this and die, vermin.

PRIVAte to Wesley
Wesley I am sorry I can't face you right now.
Fred will have her life back. I cannot tell you anything.
Nor can I explain what is about to pass.
I cannot let you see me this way. I saw Death wesley,
we both know what this means.

PUBLIC

Blue ring octopus loses.
life flickers
Good bye my friends

Aoi wa taiko nakisu
Jinsei chira-chira soshite
Sayonara tomodachi ko watashi no

I watched this program on Dangerous sea life.
A blue ring octopus and a Jelly fish.
Both very dangerous sea creatures. I wondered if one fought
the other who would win. Opinions

In mine the Jelly fish wins. It takes the prey into its digestion sac. Then drains all it can.

Something is wrong it is imparitive if you have escaped stay escaped. Unless you think you can help. I repeat this warning, don't come back. If you are escaping from another time or dimention avoid coming here.

I cannot sell my psychic, no one wants her. I bought several town bums and won a mental patient.

yes. I do not understand why it does not work. I even did as sugested and obtained a basket which I filled with edible plant material.

I have brought you a 'fruit basket' I told him now I demand you worship me as you are meant to. your insolence to this point has been unacceptable.

he only thanked me and then went back to his reading. I do not think he understands how inferior he truly is and that I would deign to do anything for him is so beneath me as to be the work of slaves. why does he not behave? must I kill him?

So many things happening. I am concerned and yet I am more lost then ever. Wesley is talking to a ghost. Has a vampire I am not allowed to rip apart. It would amuse me to do so. The tedium
is bothering me.

I am bored of the gay elf game. He hops to much and his actions are to repetitive.
I wonder why my angel keeps showing me games. I do not get most of them. Or I can beat them to fast. I heard of a game that I have not got a copy of. Rumors are interesting and I wish to find it.


I shall ask about that. Here I am a god of this place and yet I play video games. I should be doing more. This is the electronic age and I am addicted to humans. I thought I could never change. I watch them but I don't entirely get them.

Sometimes I can only think they are as bored as I am. I love Wesley and he does not want me.
It is foolish to love a human. Yet I do and it hurts. I won't send Fred away. If I can help her get a new body it will make him happy.

I need advise........

I have found Wesley. Those who hurt him will be punished. I am also concearned about those who are missing. Right now I must make sure sure that Wesley has proper care.

Broken and lost, I don't know enough about this world.

The kingdom I had is ashes and dust. I don't seek worship or to be loved.  I am a monster  who is learning how much it hurts to comprehend this world. The pain of humans and   the  price of knowing what it is to have a heart. 

I am more comfortable on the battlefield. Even though  the battle  maybe hopeless.   At least I know what  I am  to do next.
I am bored of being still.   I am  bored of doing nothing.    Here is my life and my existence  all else is   is dust. What I know is gone  time to
find  where to begin again.     What does a blue Goddess   do next?  

I heard this song  and it did not displease me.

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Free me tonight

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside

 Not happy or pleased. The traitor Gunn is still out there. I will  destroy him if I can find him.  So far he has to many tricks. The vampire has  been turned against us. He gave up being human  and now is with them.  I must look after Wesley, I feel compelled  to.  

So many  at stake and I feel  that the one I must protect most is him.   Juno  is  a warrioress  she can't leave Lauryn's .  I find her useful and  she does not displease me.  Walter ,  I  want him back here . He makes an ugly statue but I miss  it anyway.  

 

 This is odd, I can remember grieving for Wesly..  I am  having a personal  crisis.  More or less I  can never be who I was again.  At the same rate it is hard to adjust to  being  not as strong as I was. There is more to it .  I have been having  feelings.

Ashley was right,  I have to face the facts. I was  covering up  my  disgust at that man  beating me so badly. He  is not a man any more. I know that , but I was not  sure what to make of it.  This is complex and  i am just confused.  Not  that the world allready has me confused. This is not my world, I have to adapt. 

An old monk had once said, even  the oldest need to be young again.  MY turn I am Illyria a Goddess not a god. So much more to learn. Then I will Take Captain Wesker and destroy him.   First things first  , face myself  , then once I know me better , face my enemy.   

How do I start?

Candy land, the concept seemed interesting at first.
Then the game lied, it is nothing but card board and plastic.
The things you move represent cookies. 
Something a small child has power over.
This game lies, it offers no such thing as sweet confections.

 That man humiliated  me. This form was not strong enough to take him.
They  stripped me of my armor as well. I am not pleased at all.

((Log to be scene soon.))